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The way I see the world

Thank you Write With Warnimount for speaking the ABSOLUTE truth. Why is this a minority view? Why. I have sworn for years that I just don’t see the world the same way everyone else does. But it’s nice to know that there are some people in my corner. Mr. Joe Warnimount speaks up about 5 things we should do while we are young and he is absolutely correct. Why don’t we go out and be more active? See the world! Go places! And write for the loveeeeeeee just WRITE and record and be out there doing stuff that you are able to write about! That is the way to live!

Sometimes I get into these moods where I am totally engulfed in my head. Just so encompassed by it that to other people I appear to be very quiet. That is just because I am so preoccupied that I couldn’t hold a conversation even if I tried. I can’t talk about other things because the things going on in my mind are taking over. And I can’t talk about the things going on in my mind because it would be like trying to tell someone a story without giving them the backstory. In this case the backstory happens to be extremely long and complicated and only I know it in full. SO that leaves me on my own to think and be in my head.

A lot of the times when I find myself feeling like this, I just think about how the world is, my world really because I can’t ever generalize about the actual world since everything that I relate to as the “world” is only what I know it to be through my own eyes and experiences. When I let myself think about it, I feel like an outsider. A complete outsider. I don’t understand why people feel like things should be a certain way. Why is it that we have to go to college? Why do we have to take a great 9-5 job with a pension and a 401K? Why do we need to buy a house? Why buy a car? Why do we have to get married and have kids? Why do we have to be straight?

Why do all of these things, that for most people in the world are must-haves, have to be? It doesn’t make sense to me. I want to love and be loved. I want to do what I love and I know I will have a fulfilling life in turn. I want to seek a change when I feel like I need it and not be forced by the imaginary “they” to be stuck somewhere doing something I don’t want. I want to move and be on the move I want to live freely and do what makes me happy. I want to help others and I certainly DON’T want to be stuck in a boring 9-5 that I hate. I don’t even know if I want to get married or I want to have kids.

I just don’t see the world that way. There is so much to do and see. There is so much to explore and it is up to us to take advantage of it. Just because you feel like you have to do something doesn’t mean you have to. If you look back at your life, what are you going to WISH you did? That is what you need to start doing now. Everything else will sort itself out.

Now I realize that I am in my early 20s with no kids, no house, no car, no dependencies and basically no bills. (Only a few, thank god). So some people might read this and be like… shush little girl you don’t know. And maybe I don’t. Because life does have a funny way of catapulting people into things. So if you have kids and a house and a job that you either love or don’t, if you have a car and a bunch of bills, don’t forget that you are still you. You still have a life that you get to choose how to live. It is up to you to create the best life for yourself. Don’t ever EVER forget that. The universe will always say yes to you. So put things out there that you actually want and that make you happy. The answer will always be yes.

I look out my window and I say, yes, thanks Universe. Thank you for holding my hand through this life. That is my world. And I refuse to let it become tainted by the ‘you know you should reallys’, ‘they says’, ‘why don’t yous’ and criticisms. My world is beautiful, full of promise and inspiration and boundless. Is yours?

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This is a collection of both an archive and present day musings. Archived stories of past B on the journey of evolution mixed in with current desires to share processes, thoughts, discoveries and tools used on the journey of self-discovery, creative embodiment and remembering my wholeness.