I don’t know man… I am feeling excited for this Pluto in Aquarius transit. I really am. I wasn’t sure about it at first but the more I sit with it the more I am looking forward to what it might bring to the surface for me.

Here’s my process of going through it right… so I was afraid at first because of a number of factors. One of them being that Pluto as a planet is associated with the action of destruction. Another being in reflection of what has gone on while Pluto has been in Capricorn and the amount of destruction and death that has gone through that area of my chart/life. My real encounters with death as well. Scary.

However, now that I am at the end of this 15 years of Pluto in Capricorn I am realizing that there is SO much that I have learned. The archetype of the Phoenix is sometimes associated with Pluto cycles. So this is the cycle of death/rebirth and how the new thing is reborn out of the ashes of the destruction of the thing that was no longer serving.

My new identity, my new way of relating to the world is completely built upon the ashes of the old identity/way of relating to the world that was slowly crumbing, being destroyed, becoming powerless, as I gained power in the construction of something new from it all.

I don’t necessarily recognize those old versions of me anymore but at the same time I didn’t completely let it all go. This isn’t pointless destruction.

THAT is the gem. It’s not pointless destruction.

It’s not always been easy to be sure of that or to even be aware of or consider that viewpoint because when I was in the middle of those cycles of destruction it felt like my whole life was falling apart or my whole sense of myself was being destroyed. It was hard.

But now I can see it more wholly.

And I am so glad.

So upon reflection I realize how much good can come out of Pluto transits. Well let me say this… I’ve realized how much good has come out of this particular Pluto transit for me. That helped.

Now I was also afraid because it is destruction and death and transformation … going through the area of my chart that has to do with my worth, my stuff, my money. At first, even through 3 years of study on the path of mastery with astrology, I was upset and afraid that all of my financial structures would be destroyed and I’d be experiencing ‘financial loss’.

The view point was related to a similar viewpoint of being in the middle of the cycles of destruction that I mentioned earlier. When I was in the middle of it, it all just felt scary and bad and like I was only ‘losing’ and not ‘gaining’ anything.

However, upon sitting with it a bit more, I realize that there will be much to be gained. And it is a very real possibility that what I will ‘lose’ will be that which actually does not serve me. That which is dead or dying. That which needs to be destroyed. It makes so much sense now.

But when I was losing my identity as a dancer, because it was dead and needed to be destroyed, it was devastating. It needed to go, though. And it wasn’t that all of the reality of it needed to go. I still am a dancer. My attachment and forcing and unnecessary effort and pretending and proving myself all needed to go. So much more than that needed to go, too, but I don’t have all the words to articulate.

I can see it now though. And I am so glad for this wisdom that came from the experience of living through it.

Makes me excited for Pluto in Aquarius. We’ve got from today until June 11 to test it out. Then from 2024, we’ve got basically 20 years! HAH. So I am glad I am feeling okay about it right now. Let’s see how this goes.

Slow and steady for real with this. That’s what I keep reminding myself. It’s one of my biggest lessons in life. Unfolding as I go, my blessings and wisdom are growing exponentially in their own timing. That is the part I can’t control. So I am increasingly improving my skill in waiting.

I am getting really good at waiting. And really good at defining what waiting means to me. Allowing waiting to be living.

Whew. I am excited to witness the unfolding.