My ears have been ringing for 3.5 years now.

I am still not sure if they were injured or if I am in distress. I feel it’s a bit of both.

So I have been doing some things for myself to soothe the symptoms of it. Lately though, it has gotten quite loud.

It seems to feel worse when I am on a screen.

Almost all of the work I do at the moment requires me to be on a screen.

About a week ago, I decided to read for a while instead of sitting watching TV.

My body temperature calmed itself down.

The ringing in the ears was still there, but I feel it was the better choice.

I am trying to find ways to be outside immersed in nature and still do my work.

The sound of nature overrides the ringing it seems.

It’s been a tough few weeks navigating this and my body temperature changes.

It’s quite uncomfortable and upsetting at times.

And it’s been years and years with both of these things. I got very frustrated a few days ago. But it led to a bit of a break through.

And actually I feel like I am having one right now as I am writing this.

Yes. I need to reconnect to nature and return to my younger self.

It’s lining up with time I’ve been spending in retreat contemplating the first seven years of my life.

Wow.

Okay so I’m off to the outside world now. It’s obvious that there’s only one thing to do here. Bare feet on the grass outside for a bit and let’s see where it goes from there.