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To my beloved Grandfather
My knees were hurting me for weeks… Now that you are gone all I can think about is how you used to say, “I got old legs…” I don’t really drink anymore, but recently we went to the liquor store and they put all the bottles into paper bags. It makes me think of your…
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Missing my guardian angel
Gosh. Goodness. Goodness gracious ouch. I didn’t know what it would really be like to miss you. Not like I do now. I remember things. I remember things. I remember things and I am so glad I remember things. I remember you told me… “if you fall on your ass we’ll be there.” I remember…
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To my beloved momma
I ache with deep love for you. If I could rid you of your suffering I would. Sometimes I feel I would take it on. Sometimes I feel I would actually take it on so you didn’t have to. And I realize that I have always tried, to protect you. My love for you runs…
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A letter to my mind
To my beloved mind… I remember reading once that asking you to stop thinking would be like asking my heart to stop beating. I would never do that, I want to be here. So … why does it feel this way with you my dear mind? Things that go on in there feel out of…
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A love note to my senses
Hi eyes. Hi ears. Hi nose. Hi mouth. Hi hands and skin. Where do I begin? To eat the ripest fruits. See the face of the one I love. Hear my mother’s laugh from her room. Smell the freshness of the air when I step outside. Feel the softness of a towel upon my skin.…
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Oh what a year it has been
2022. The unexpected. A life lived through solo eternity. A life lived through eternal longing self-acceptance and loss. Lots of loss. Pain with loss and grief that has been waiting to be felt. Letting go of things I thought were me. Letting go of things I thought were my life. Saying hello to parts of…
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Whispers from little B
Awh little B, you are so sweet. This year, this holiday season, I am filled with mixed emotions. I am acknowledging how it feels time to truly give myself time to sit within the feelings, the pain, the confusion, now. This morning on my walk I was sifting through some of the incessant thoughts. These…
