Tag: relationships

  • Liberation

    What happens when I just want to break the seal? Rip the lid off the secrets? Reveal the secrets of my heart and my life that have been eating away at me. I feel pressure. I want to feel liberated. I want to liberate my truth. No one has asked or invited, but I feel…

  • Missing my guardian angel

    Gosh. Goodness. Goodness gracious ouch. I didn’t know what it would really be like to miss you. Not like I do now. I remember things. I remember things. I remember things and I am so glad I remember things. I remember you told me… “if you fall on your ass we’ll be there.” I remember…

  • Uncertainty

    It is okay for me to love you and be unsure of what to do with that love. It is okay to not act upon my uncertainty so I can support myself to stay with what is being brought up by it. It is okay to love you and not do anything about it. Except…

  • Expansion… and grief.

    I am working on an article about Pluto in Capricorn, which I am really excited about. But I realize it might take me some time so I decided to share a bit today anyway, to keep my daily commitment to showing up and writing or speaking or updating my website. This week has been ……

  • I don’t know…grief

    I don’t know what to write today, but I came here to write. So I will. I try to write an article once a week but the excitement for that hasn’t come yet this week. I thought it would today because today is Wednesday and the last couple of articles I wrote were written on…

  • Grief – 3

    Ohhhhh boy am I angry. Raging actually. And you know what? It’s not about the death. It’s not about you dying. Its about everything else and everyone else. It’s about others consistently making choices that restrict my life or affect my life and then I have to live out the aftermath of it. I am…

  • Grief – 2

    Today it feels like ‘what if?’ In the darkness I cry. Sometimes at night, sometimes early morning before the sun rises. I realize I am terrified. What if something happens? What if she dies? What if they don’t tell me? What if they shame me for not calling? What if they guilt me? What if…

  • Grief

    Ouch. Ouuu. Owww. Ohhh. It hurts in a way that feels physical. I cry so hard I feel like I might break. But at the same time it feels like my crying muscles are elastic. Inexhaustible. So if I start, I might just cry forever. I am grieving the living as much as the dead.…

  • What if

    But what if something does happen and I didn’t have the time to figure it out? What if I am not able to do what I am supposed to do? What if I didn’t tell everyone I love them that I love them and then they go? What if they don’t know how much I…

  • Love and desire

    Well I remember being told that if you love someone you do things for them and with them even if you don’t want to. Because it doesn’t take much to make their day. And how much can it really hurt you to do that for them? So … love is doing things you don’t want…