It’s been a very crazy week for me. I had my first call with my spiritual mentor on Wednesday and she and I spent a lot of time talking about responsibility and homesickness, connection and energy. I listened to the call again today and another thought dawned on me.

Time is passing, space is opening, I am living each day trying to be present but I feel like I have no control over what I’m doing. i feel like I’m not making choices, just letting things happen. Not accepting them per se but just being there for them. And then I end up feeling guilty, panicky, upset or any number of things that don’t align with who I am as a person and how I want to be living in this world. So what does that even mean? I have got the wrong perspective on my days.

That’s what hit me. My perspective is all kinds of messed up. So think about this…. and read this loud and clear, I know I will about 100 times.

Don’t just allow things to happen and try to be present. CHOOSE to allow things to happen and CHOOSE to be present in the moments.

Example… If you feel tired and you start falling asleep at your computer… this is the universe and your body simply saying: It’s time for a rest now. SO … don’t just pass out at the computer and then wake up feeling guilty. Choose to allow yourself to rest for a bit, enjoy the rest because you clearly need it, and then carry on with your life and your days. Ya know?

Choose your perspective… what does your looking glass allow you to see? When you look in the mirror, what does it reflect back? You might not be able to control it, but you damn sure can choose to allow wonderful things to be revealed to you.

Choose to allow a bit of luck into your life. Be a little superstitious from now on. Life is magical anyway.

Just a bitta thinkin on a Friday. Cyberspace – I appreciate you.

Talk soon,

B-