And that’s okay. It doesn’t always feel okay. In fact it only feels okay right now haha! It’s taken a long time to get here actually, to the point where I can allow myself to be in my process, in real time, without feeling like I can only present it or exchange with it outside of my own cave when it is ‘presentable’.

Whatever that means. So some of my links might be the wrong color. Some of my photos might not match with the new look I am trying out. And that’s okay. I really want to show up in this space, my space, my internet home, my laboratory, my place to experiment… in real time. I really want to show up in real time.

I wasn’t allowing myself to do that because I felt like things were constantly changing.

Being in my 5th year of study in Human Design, my 3rd year in astrology and my second year in the Gene Keys has given me enough evidence to know that I am constantly mutating, transforming and refining what I gather along the way.

This year in particular I have had to let go of a lot. A lot has transformed and a lot is no longer with me because it actually hasn’t been for quite some time.

But what am I going to do? Wait until it magically all comes together and then start sharing? Nope. Can’t do that.

I am sifting and sorting through the debris right now. Sharing as I do it may be the very thing that supports me to get clearer and to refine what I am saying.

So this is my new commitment to myself.

Sharing my mutations in real time. Being here however I am, in real time.

And … expanding my capacity to sit with the discomfort of that.

This is my space and I intend to use it… in real time. Not just when when it feels “presentable” or “ready”. That’s certainly one thing I’ve learned from my life in choreography … it is never done, but it can be shared at whatever point of the journey it is at. Kind of like life… eh?

I love practices that allow me to practice how I want to be in life.

So I’m also not going to completely delete everything that has come before this moment.

And I am really proud of that. It feels as though it’s taken a while to get to this point. I am so glad to be here because I have so much I want to share. Yay.

Yep … yay. That’s all. YAY it feels blissful. WOOHOO hahahahahah awh man this feeling is like laughter and electricity and it makes my eyes cry.

Delighted now… to be here doing this. Showing up. In real time. Mutation: in real time.

Alright… hugs.