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Today
Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up.…
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Uncertainty
It is okay for me to love you and be unsure of what to do with that love. It is okay to not act upon my uncertainty so I can support myself to stay with what is being brought up by it. It is okay to love you and not do anything about it. Except…
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Used to
I used to. You know? I used to do that. And I got used to it. Over time, somehow, I stopped. But I used to.
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What I didn’t hear
My ears are bothering me. There is a conflict within my body. It feels like a healing. The symptoms are showing up because I am healing now. Healing from what I didn’t hear. Healing from what I did not hear. And healing from not having the chance to be heard. It really hurts. To not…
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My needs
I have been mulling this over for a while now. Over time I have been coming to a realization that I neglect, minimize, rush through or completely ignore my needs. Now that I am able to see this, I am also having feelings about it. Sadness is one and anger another. Loss and grief as…
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Fishing
Frustration. Anger. I hear myself. Talking out loud to myself I hear myself say these words that remind me that this is a part of what is not actually me. Me at my core, me at my unique frequency. Me as I am designed. To be successful. To feel success. To be recognized. To feel…
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Mind
A flash of thought came through earlier during my yoga class. It’s not fully formed in this moment, I couldn’t completely hold on to it when it came through. I have been repeatedly contemplating how my mind has set up its patterns to protect me from feeling my feelings. That’s the whole gist of these…
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Self-discipline
Today was a light day, full of relaxation and delicious food. On days like this, especially since it is Saturday, I can find it really easy to not sit down to write here. However, I am self-disciplined. This discipline has sometimes been damaging to me because of how extreme I can be with commitments. At…
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A mirror is a reflection
A mirror is a reflection. This is something I have on my mind and heart today. I have been raging inside about people’s actions or lack of actions throughout my life. My body is bringing this up and through me, without my choice and so now I have to attend to it. My line of…
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In the end
I just feel so tired today. Yesterday I felt energized. Monday night I got some feelings out. I don’t want to isolate myself. I don’t want to be isolated from those who love me. The love feels so incomplete though. I wonder if I am letting myself receive it? The mind chatter goes on and…
