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Proving my love
I asked, “Do you ever feel like you have to prove that you love me?” ”Yes, sometimes.” I thought to myself…yeah me too. I learned that to love is to show and tell and prove. I learned that to love is to buy and to take and to reserve and to spend and to share…
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The unexpected
I am so afraid of breaking the rules sometimes that it is paralyzing. What if I get in trouble? What if something happens? I really feel that the mind, in my mind, it is TERRIFYING to think of breaking the rules. And yet, in so many aspects of my life and in so many decisions…
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The Rules
The Rules, you know? The RULES. Those rules. THE rules. Them, you know? The rules you better follow. Or else. Those ones. Yes THOSE rules. The Rules. You know?
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Hrvatska
blah blah blah I really am struggling with feeling like I have a community. Social media exhausts me and I am not sure what to do about it. I find it such a waste of time yet somehow have this belief that without it I can’t be successful because no one will find me. How…
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Today
Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up. Today I pretended it was yesterday so I could catch up.…
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Uncertainty
It is okay for me to love you and be unsure of what to do with that love. It is okay to not act upon my uncertainty so I can support myself to stay with what is being brought up by it. It is okay to love you and not do anything about it. Except…
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Used to
I used to. You know? I used to do that. And I got used to it. Over time, somehow, I stopped. But I used to.
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My needs
I have been mulling this over for a while now. Over time I have been coming to a realization that I neglect, minimize, rush through or completely ignore my needs. Now that I am able to see this, I am also having feelings about it. Sadness is one and anger another. Loss and grief as…
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Fishing
Frustration. Anger. I hear myself. Talking out loud to myself I hear myself say these words that remind me that this is a part of what is not actually me. Me at my core, me at my unique frequency. Me as I am designed. To be successful. To feel success. To be recognized. To feel…
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Mind
A flash of thought came through earlier during my yoga class. It’s not fully formed in this moment, I couldn’t completely hold on to it when it came through. I have been repeatedly contemplating how my mind has set up its patterns to protect me from feeling my feelings. That’s the whole gist of these…
