Tag: self-help

  • Readiness

    Readiness has come over me like a wave that comes crashing down upon the shore, like bread toasting in the toaster, like the sunset on a hot summer day. I could feel it coming and the whole time I was becoming ready. Readiness has pieces and parts like a pizza has a crust, sauce, cheese…

  • Lonely

    I spend a lot of time alone. I used to be afraid of that. Afraid I would be lonely maybe. I feel sad about bonds broken over time. Especially when I feel like I’m the only one. It hurts me to think back to the rejections I felt. It hurts me to see them get…

  • Pressure

    I have a couple of decisions to make. Actions to take or not take. I feel a lot of pressure mounting around them. The pressure builds inside of me and it comes from both directions. The head and the root. Inside my mind I am weighing the options, drafting conversations and messages, imagining myself taking…

  • Stay

    When I want to go… what do I do? I used to go. When I wanted to go, I’d go. I’d run, in fact. Sometimes I would run. Now… when I want to go? I stay. I have learned to question who it is that is telling me to go. And why. Why should I…

  • Waiting for the other shoe

    to drop, you know? Through all of the suffering, a lot of beautiful life force energy has been emerging within me and catapulting out into my life. I am still in deep hibernation, but as days continue I am feeling more and more at home within myself. I am aligning with a path of contributions…

  • With myself

    Being with myself has gotten better and better over time. I also wonder if it is one of those things that is simply going back to the way it used to be when I was a child. I really wish I could remember more of my childhood. I have been asking my body to reveal…

  • In my days

    Today I woke up with a headache. I was so in my head about it. I decided to be in my day instead. I knew I needed to fall asleep but it was hard to soothe myself. Eventually I fell asleep and I’m so glad I did. When I woke up I was so in…

  • Self-care

    A lot of my self care lately looks like learning to be patient. Learning to be gentle. Allowing myself to take time. Allowing myself to not know because being uncertain feels true for me right now. It looks like being able to be patient with myself about not communicating with others especially through the pressure…

  • Trusting myself

    Somehow I learned not to, so now somehow I spend a lot of time learning how to again. I wish I could remember more. I wish I could stop seeing things happening in my life as boxes to check off. I wish I didn’t feel so much pressure to hurry up and get things done.…

  • Staying

    Slow and steady. That is what I feel the pace of my life has been lately. Sometimes I want to get out of things and move on to new things, but every time I cycle through that energy, I learn something. This time I am learning that there is so much adventure to be had…