Tag: family

  • To my beloved momma

    I ache with deep love for you. If I could rid you of your suffering I would. Sometimes I feel I would take it on. Sometimes I feel I would actually take it on so you didn’t have to. And I realize that I have always tried, to protect you. My love for you runs…

  • Inside,

    Inside, I am raging. Inside, I am hurting. Inside, I am crying. Inside, I am devastated. Inside, I am heartbroken. Inside, I am in despair. Inside, I am confused. Inside, I am raging. Inside, I really am raging. Enraged. What do I do with you? My rage. My confusion. My desperation. My heartbreak. My devastation.…

  • Expansion… and grief.

    I am working on an article about Pluto in Capricorn, which I am really excited about. But I realize it might take me some time so I decided to share a bit today anyway, to keep my daily commitment to showing up and writing or speaking or updating my website. This week has been ……

  • I don’t know…grief

    I don’t know what to write today, but I came here to write. So I will. I try to write an article once a week but the excitement for that hasn’t come yet this week. I thought it would today because today is Wednesday and the last couple of articles I wrote were written on…

  • Grief – 3

    Ohhhhh boy am I angry. Raging actually. And you know what? It’s not about the death. It’s not about you dying. Its about everything else and everyone else. It’s about others consistently making choices that restrict my life or affect my life and then I have to live out the aftermath of it. I am…

  • Grief – 2

    Today it feels like ‘what if?’ In the darkness I cry. Sometimes at night, sometimes early morning before the sun rises. I realize I am terrified. What if something happens? What if she dies? What if they don’t tell me? What if they shame me for not calling? What if they guilt me? What if…

  • Sometimes

    Sometimes I feel like you all failed. Sometimes I feel like I was deceived. Sometimes I feel like you lied. Sometimes I want to hate you. Sometimes I want to cry. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I can’t believe how we got here. Sometimes I am reminded of how I could see it so clearly. Sometimes…

  • I accept

    LOL. I want to write this … in my head. But when I sit with myself I’m like yes I’ll accept this, that and the other in 10 years !!! Then I’ll write about acceptance. No honestly that isn’t actually true. I have these wild moments, where I feel I can accept the truth of…

  • Parables of B – coming home to myself + New Moon Intentions

    Alrighty – so today the situation is this – the Virgo New Moon is approaching. It will be exact at 7AM September 17th. I am setting my intentions for it now. This new moon will be in Virgo which is my 9th house in my chart. The 9th house is the house of foreign travel,…

  • Cast it into the fire

    This is a thing that I could do all the time (writing). I am in the process of looking for jobs. I’m not looking too hard yet but I’ve decided that I want to. I want to work for someone else who can teach me things. I want to be in an environment where I…