I feel a sense of release… like I’ve been freed or something since I started this new adventure. Writing here just feels so relaxing and cathartic. It is like my journal, but better in some ways because typing keeps up with my mind. Don’t get me wrong I could never replace my journal with blogging because the journal has parts of me in it that this computer screen will never see and these keys will never explain, but it is nice to put thoughts out there into the universe especially because I will have them anyway, whether I share or don’t share.
I like sharing. I also love it and think I have become a bit addicted to this little blog of mine. It’s all I think about all day. I have so many drafts going on at one time because I have a thought and I just write it in a title and save a draft in a matter of seconds, just so I don’t forget! I have been tempted to write while I am at work which is so bad because I am working…. duh.
But I just want to write. That’s all I want to do. It is so addicting to be able to just put my thoughts out there. I have also been blessed with the gift of being able to just write what I want. It doesn’t feel hard because I worked for years to make a habit of writing. Now I just simply love it. It feels like the best use of my time, apart from dancing which is a whole other story anyway.
I would love to just sit down and write all day… I’ve been saying I wanted to write a book for a long time now. Do any of you feel that way? You just want to write a book… you have no idea what it would be about but you have some ideas of what you’d like to write. Maybe you daydream about your life as a writer and getting up everyday to just sit down in your favorite spot with your cup of tea and write. And when you get so into what you’re writing that you just get completely carried away by it, so carried away that you don’t even realize the day has turned to night until you take a split second to look out the window. I fantasize about that life. I think I would love it. When I am ready for it and I have the opportunity to do so, I think I will write a book.
I really have developed such a deep relationship with my writing and a strong love of it. I have so much to share! That’s why it is so exciting. I had to put that down somewhere because I have to admit: I am addicted to my new blog. So why not just accept it. That’s the first step right?
Bianca Smith’s 12 step program: Blog Addiction. Might take a while to develop. For now I’ll just chase after the blog high.