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The unexpected
I am so afraid of breaking the rules sometimes that it is paralyzing. What if I get in trouble? What if something happens? I really feel that the mind, in my mind, it is TERRIFYING to think of breaking the rules. And yet, in so many aspects of my life and in so many decisions…
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The Rules
The Rules, you know? The RULES. Those rules. THE rules. Them, you know? The rules you better follow. Or else. Those ones. Yes THOSE rules. The Rules. You know?
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A love note to my senses
Hi eyes. Hi ears. Hi nose. Hi mouth. Hi hands and skin. Where do I begin? To eat the ripest fruits. See the face of the one I love. Hear my mother’s laugh from her room. Smell the freshness of the air when I step outside. Feel the softness of a towel upon my skin.…
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Grief – 2
Today it feels like ‘what if?’ In the darkness I cry. Sometimes at night, sometimes early morning before the sun rises. I realize I am terrified. What if something happens? What if she dies? What if they don’t tell me? What if they shame me for not calling? What if they guilt me? What if…
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What if
But what if something does happen and I didn’t have the time to figure it out? What if I am not able to do what I am supposed to do? What if I didn’t tell everyone I love them that I love them and then they go? What if they don’t know how much I…
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I accept
LOL. I want to write this … in my head. But when I sit with myself I’m like yes I’ll accept this, that and the other in 10 years !!! Then I’ll write about acceptance. No honestly that isn’t actually true. I have these wild moments, where I feel I can accept the truth of…
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Parables of B – Homecoming
How can I fully embrace this homecoming? I am tired today. Very tired. Yesterday was a huge day and took a lot out of me. I realized that setting intentions and seeing them and accepting them as delivered… as real and as true… it’s hard for me and it takes a lot out of me…
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Parables of B – Positive Obsessions
So what is your positive obsession B? ALRIGHT! Well I asked a friend this question because I thought it was so super interesting. I mean honestly as human beings – for me as a human being anyway – I find that I have tendencies, habits, things that I fall into. It’s like the mind –…
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On the wings
I still see you bouncing up and down on the wings of the plane. They always seat me at or near the wing. I can always see it. I appreciate that. It makes me feel as though that connection is still there for me. It’s wild that we haven’t spoken at all really in the…
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To the beach
Some days I wake up and I have a lot on my mind- I wonder about what happened during my sleep. I can’t remember my dreams usually but I feel like my body remembers. So then my mental activity is quite … high. And today was one of those days. I woke up and felt…
